Pre-travel blues

I can count the number of times I’ve traveled to Europe on one hand, and every time in the weeks leading up to it, I’ve been nothing but excited.

This time is different.

In the past few weeks I’ve been dealing with a lot of stress and anxiety surrounding this trip, and I’m not really sure why. It’s very uncharacteristic of me. Maybe it’s because it’s somewhere I’ve never been before. Maybe because I’m traveling alone. Maybe because it’s for TWO WHOLE YEARS and as of now, I still don’t have any plans to come home. Maybe it’s because I’m leaving a boyfriend back home. I don’t know.

Before I left for Berlin last summer – which is a place I know and love – I had kind of similar stuff going on. It wasn’t so much anxiety as it was a sort of numbness, apathy. People would ask me, “aren’t you excited?” And I couldn’t honestly say “yes.” It wasn’t until I was actually at the airport, rolling my giant suitcase from the parking lot to the terminal, that I started getting butterflies and a huge grin broke across my face. Now it’s the morning of my departure and I’m all over the place.

I KNOW that once I get there, everything will be fine. It’ll be a grand adventure, I’ll be surrounded by interesting people living in a beautiful place.

But for now, I’m still freaking out.

Advertisements

2 thoughts on “Pre-travel blues

  1. gretchen laturner

    I know you and I know Denmark. You will absolutely love it there – promise. Danes are awesome and with English and German the language will give you no trouble. I have spent two summers there – once when I was 16 and once when in my 50s. Both were among my best summers ever. Once your underway everything will fall into place.

    Sent from my iPhone

    >

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s